Success truely is a lonely path. In my experience so far in high school, trying to succeed can really seperate you from everyone else. Not everyone wants to go the extra mile or even needs to especially in my school, however I often feel the need to try to attempt that one extra thing. And yet, even with my hardwork, and dedication so far my payoffs have not been great. For example, I have never gotten straight A’s ever, period. Even though, I strive to achieve them, they never come.

Then there is my parents, who constantly attempt to drive me to perfection. It usually is annoying, but this is something I would like to do. However, for some odd reason some things don’t come natural to me. Spanish, is probably by far one of my worst classes becuase I just cannot speak a foreign language besides the crappy Chinese I can speak. Then, I just can’t understand grammar either, my essay writing is horrible and not matter what I try I just get Bs and Cs on them. You see, memorizing is fine, vocab quizes are easy, and projects are no big deal. It’s just that some things I just can’t do well on no matter how much I try on.

Also, there’s the issue of math. If you read the other post about my math classes, you’d find that I’m facing a wall of fustration. I’m decent in math, but these last 2 years have literaly stripped me of any desire to learn math becuase all the hardwork I put in did not show in my grades. In the end, I decided to drop down half a math level to precal so that I could recoup, and hopefully raise my grade. But, now its a bit too easy. It seems as if there’s no middle class for people like me.

But, back to the topic on hand. It’s true that I’m sorta of a oddball in my school. Considering that there’s only really 5 or 6 real Asians in my high school, that really makes me stick out sometimes. Also, well honestly there’s not much I can relate to in my generation. I don’t listen to the same music, nor do I play many of the same sports, and also not a single person in my school has the same interest in technology as I. I’m begining to feel that high school is just another stepping stone in the path of life, and as soon as it’s over, I’d be glad. However, I plan to continue doing what I do, and hopefully concentrate more to finish off with the best possible plan so that I can propel myself into college and beyond.