You know that phrase right, “2 steps forward, 1 step back?” Well, as of lately I’ve been feeling that. The last month was just horrible in terms of grades, and life in general.

Well basically to sum up my position currently, I’m in a bit of a problem. The math course I’ve been taking these last 2 years has been an uphill struggle for me to keep up with the work and to do well in the classes. The only reason why I stayed in the Advanced course to Adv. Precal. is becuase I had a the previous math teacher vuach for me. For example, I finished the year off last year with a B+ however, my final exam was a high C+. Something other than the C+ told me I was burned out at the end of the year. In addition, all my exams were the same exact grade! So something went wrong at the end, maybe it was becuase I worked to hard or maybe the material was just too much. I’m not sure what was the problem, and now this year that problem is come back to haunt me.

So far this year I’m doing even worse in terms of grades, and with all the struggles I went through last year I think I’ve lost sight of why I decided to skip a math grade. Looking back, I now think that taking Geometry over the summer to compensate for the fact that the administrators of my school wouldn’t let me move up to the advanced math course even though I aced the regular course was a bit premature. After all, I’ve missed maybe a whole year of advanced math topics and now I have barely any foundation on which to build my math on.
And now, my dean, my math teacher, and my advisor all suggest that I move down to regular precal. Now the agruments are clear and they do make plenty of sense. However, I somehow think that if I went down I would destroy all the hard work I had put into math just to get at this level. But, if I stop to think about the problem, it really makes a lot more sense for me to go down, as my grade currently is in the crapshoot and I’m sometimes just way to fustrated to do math. This is the part where I wish I could predict the future, but with all regards moving down is probably my best choice at the moment as I still could take more math later on if I so wished. I don’t yet know what I will tell my math teacher, but I will soon and I hope it will be the right decision.

Thanks for reading!
Eric Huang